Thursday, February 23, 2012

So another death! Lt Justin was a friend of my niece and a really good guy. I know that when these young men and women join the service they know that they could die for their country. It does not release that sting of the pain that follows. Can I give up Death for Lent? So many people have died or lost a loved one in the past two months. 2012 has been a year for it. I can't believe that it is so early in the year and so many funerals. It is sad. It is tragic. I don't believe that due to the Mayan calendar the world will end but 2012 is an end to a lot of things.

I am not sure where to go with this. I am sure that God has his plan and I am sure he sheds tears too. Just wish his plan had a lot less loss.

That is all for now.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Re do!

Have you ever wanted to do a re-do! 2012 is a year that I would love to redo! It has been a year or trials and it is only February! I have always wanted to get my blog moving and as you can see I started more than a year ago. Still not doing well on the blogging! lol

So 2012!
I have never been one to label a year as good or bad. This is a first for me. 2012 has been horrible. At the first of the year my dear father was hospitalized for a fall. By the grace of God he was OK but he lost the muscle tone to get up from a sitting position or be able to walk on his own. They left him in the hospital for several days then began a series of moves that basically ended in a hospice. My sister call on 2/1 telling me to prepare, Dad was not doing well. She stated it would probably be sooner than later for his passing. About twenty minutes later she called again. Dad had passed. He had died in his sleep. What a blessing! I was devastated at first. Robert and I were at the doctor's office and I had to hold it in until we could go outside. Robert was definitely my rock, holding me and letting me know he loved me. I felt safe in his arms. I went home and cried to Mercy Me! I dedicated several songs on my facebook from Mercy Me to my dad.

My dad was a totally amazing man. He loved life and he lead a very simple life. He never wanted to complicate things. He was the oldest of five children. Joined the Marine Corps and served in WWII and Korea. He went to Colorado University and met my mom! They married and had two children then adopted me! Dad was almost perfect. He never yelled. He loved! We went hiking, camping but never swimming. Dad hated cold water. He loved to eat! We had several places in Salt Lake City that we would frequent for a delicious treat. Dad always thought of others and had such honest and ethical values. He was raised with proper parenting and I hope that I have some of that too. His loss is a big one. Dad is missed so much. But I must explain more!

During the month of January I lost my position at school. It was a bad thing at first. I was terrible hurt and extremely angry. I took most of my anger out at two people until I could successfully accept my resignation. It was a blow but once again my rock Robert held onto me with steadfast love.

On January 14, 2012 my father-in-law Lisandro had a wet stroke. For a full week we lived in the waiting room of his Nashville, Tennessee. He would respond well, then go down. Dealing with the stress and praying for his complete recovery was taking a serious toll on us all. After a week, the doctor's took Lisandro into surgery, drained a large pool of blood and found a small blood vessel that was "leaking". Praise God....he is recovering at home today! He lost the ability to swallow and lives with a feeding tube which breaks my heart! But he looks good and thanks to Skype....we get to see him.

After my father's passing, we left for a week in Vegas. Another week of no schedule, and no direction of where we were going. After the funeral we arrived home.

In December a neighbor's child broke her leg on our trampoline. Now we might get sued! So can I say 2012 is a bad year????

I pray daily that these are small hurdles that we are having to cross to get to the good?! I pray we find peace in every day living. I pray we find understanding and acceptance. I pray for 2012 to turn around and be a blessing instead of a hurdle!